Sunday, May 12, 2024
Sat trying to think of what to write. The first thing that jumps to mind is an out pouring of love that i feel for for my cousin, my friend Andrew. How and why the hell did this happen?, still feels so surreal...... such a lost to so many, literally so many. Impressions, ambitions, drive and the desire to follow your dreams and being mindful on your journey. So many lives touched.
I have so many memories of our childhood, fun, laughter, adventure and goofing around with my cousins on a Sunday evening. So many songs remind me of being down nans and feeling like we were grown up but being silly and "growing together" in the back room, under the arch and later on down aunty Sallys'.
I always thought it was cool as I was the only girl within the six of us. I always looked up to our Andrew and can see him etched in my mind smiling and being the older cousin who I admired and felt drawn to. Our friendship as children turn into a different type of bond as we grew into the adults we had become and I remember confiding in him about relationships that I was in at the time and the meaning of life. This was in the times before mobile phones and Internet and I would of had to ask to use the telephone at home. Things weren't as easy to keep in touch then but we still had that connection which I was always aware of.
Andrew moved to America so naturally our relationship took us off on different paths but I know we both still felt that love and bond and would of been the best of friends had he still lived in England. I take comfort in knowing I will see him again on the other side in a different place, a better place, where ever that may be as "there are no goodbyes in this life, it's just cheerio until we meet in the next".
We love you and we thank you Andrew, please give my beautiful mum a big squeeze for me and will look forward to seeing you on the other side. I know you are still with us and will be walking with your mum, dad, Nick and Paul, Gavin and Emma and especially Dee at this time. So much love and respect until we all meet again as of that I'm absolutely sure of it.
Much love to all, Rachel and dad
